She Has Sustenance!

Although I myself have never given birth, as midwife to my dearest friend, I witnessed the experience first hand. Thus, I know it can hurt like hell, produce a goopy mess and in all likelihood, at least one person is going to be screaming. Hello, 2012. I am my own New Year’s baby!

Each year at this time, when resolutions role around, I like to pick a theme for my year and try to make that my focus. Usually something like eat healthy, have compassion or managing my time. Which usually lasts until about the time those little green demons also known as Girl Scouts invade our local supermarket parking lots! This year, my theme is baby New Year. And, like the real birthing process, I know I will “feel some discomfort,” and it ain’t always going to be pretty – I might even yell some off-the wall things. BUT, I know that ultimately, if I trust, surrender and give a good push and a little cleaning up, there is a life awaiting me.

I am the new mom and the new baby. As the mom my goal is to provide the baby with a loving space to grow, give her proper nutrition and let her know that she is loved, she has sustenance! And like most new mom’s I am going to need some help. I am going to talk to my darling husband and like the doting father that I know he would be, I am certain to have his support. I am going to ask my sponsor and Rebecca’s house to be my midwives. Goodbye 2011. Today, I am giving birth. Even if it turns out to be contractions and I have to start again tomorrow or the day after that, I am giving birth to a life of fulfilled. Hello 2012. I am my own New Year’s baby. We are going to need some towels!

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