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Withholding Food While Mourning

I've been grieving my grandmother's passing, and I am ashamed to admit it, but I've lost 20 lbs from withholding food. Her passing left me numb and I just wanted to feel something. The only thing that allowed me to feel was hunger and starvation. Then, a friend gave me a dog. A rescue named Audrey. In observing the gratitude this puppy has from her simple food, I can feel my heart mending. Rather than withholding my food, I am eating with simplicity and gratitude. I am thankful that she is here; I know that I am going to need the nudge of her cold nose to get me through a holiday season without my "NaNa".

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